I often feel physically, emotionally and spiritually worn out. The fact that I am doing alone what was designed to be a two-person job. Raising a family.
Let’s be honest here. The selfish part of me – want to jump off somewhere high and be done with it.
But because my kids depend on me, I can’t afford to push myself past a certain point.
I am not tough, I simply know how to bottle it all inside and pretend to get on with my day, smiling and pretending I have everything under control.
No matter how much time I would spend recharging – then reality delivers a straight punch right to the gut that usually brings me down to my knees. How long I can maintain the engine running? I don’t know….
I can only pray and cling on His promises that He will be there.